Now that the Britney Spears song is stuck in your head (you’re welcome), I’m once again amazed and slightly embarrassed over the length of time since my last post. It’s not as thought nothing is going on in my life, or that I don’t have a million things to say or perspectives to share. But it’s always easier to find an excuse not to reveal what’s going on and how I’m feeling about it, than to write and maintain a level of honesty and openness I try to commit to when posting.
But here I am and here we are. The summer passed in a blink of an eye, with too many planned summer experiences and adventures not lived yet again. Another disappointing birthday came and went. Some incredible, amazing, exhilarating moments were realized. I achieved a few milestones, while many other goals went unfulfilled. Life goes on as usual.
I guess when it comes down to it, it’s just easier to keep my head in the sand and ignore the outside world. Sure, I get up and put one foot in front of the other when it’s required, but operating in survival mode is easier when it’s a solo mission. I’ve been waiting and hoping that the creative fire inside of me is re-lit, as I miss it. I don’t expect lightening but a little spark would be nice.
But the back-to-school feeling is in the air, and with it (for me, anyway) comes a sense of starting over, renewal, getting life back on track. Autumn is my favorite season of the year, and even with the disappointment of not living the summer to its fullest, I will move forward (and count the days to my planned tropical getaway… summer in November, perhaps?).
So once again, I try to start over.