Have you ever felt like you / your life is at a crossroads? Where change is inevitable, and will have rippling repercussions regardless of the choices you make?
Welcome to my world.
Some parts of my life (professional, personal or otherwise) are going well, progressing in a positive manner. Other parts are at a standstill or seemingly moving in reverse. Change is coming and I am not sure how I feel about it.
There have been entirely too many occasions over the past few years where I have needed to take a step back and assess where I am at and where I am going. I know that my destiny is in my own hands, but why does it have to be so complicated? When I think about some of my options and weighs the pros and cons, there are too many cons with either choice. It’s like I need to select the lesser of two evils.
That blows, by the way.
Perhaps all of this would be easier if I had a clearer idea what I wanted in terms of “what’s next” in my life. I’ve talked about moving away, as I could do my job anywhere, but where would I go? And at this stage of my life, how much starting over in a new town where I don’t know a soul am I willing to do? Speaking of work, how much do I want to focus on growing my business and maintaining a work/life balance (key to my happiness and sanity) as opposed to returning to the world of the working stiffs, collecting a much-needed “regular” paycheck again at an as-of-yet-unknown personal cost? Where is the break-even point of doing what I want to do (teach yoga etc.) vs. what I have to do to pay the bills?
Times like this make me wish that crystal balls really did exist. Not to see my future as I would prefer to enjoy the ride and experience the surprises, but to be pointed in the right direction — or at least away from the wrong one.