Spring Forward, Fall Back

April, already? Well, we are a quarter of the way through 2013 and it is safe to conclude that I am still a disaster. A certified, walking/eating/sleeping/breathing/flying disaster. So what’s new, right?

Yeah, I know things are never going to be perfect, or even good enough. I will always be behind, I will always feel like I’ve failed. It’s how I’ve always been and <not really all that> old habits die hard.

I know I need to climb the ladder. But yeah ... I'm apprehensive.

I know I need to climb the ladder. But yeah … I’m apprehensive.

However, very teeny tiny bits of my life aren’t quite as horrendous and tragic as usual. Slowly, some things are coming together. Very slowly, but surely. I’m getting off of my ass and getting shit done. A sigh of relief or two have occurred.

BUT … (there is always a “but”, isn’t there?) … of course being the (former??) type-A overachieving type, whenever I go through bursts of productivity like I’m doing now, rather than making me feel better in many ways they are making me feel worse. Why did I fall so far behind in the first place? What’s really going on in this head and heart of mine that made me such a schlub? And when did I start speaking Yiddish?


I’m heading to the Caribbean for a long weekend. I need some rest, relaxation and perspective. Something needs to change, and the only person who has the power to recognize what it is and make it happen is … me.

Life After Normal


Life never goes according to plan - by choice or circumstance. This is my journey of how I am navigating my "Life After Normal": wondering WTF happened and how did I get to be in my mid-30s? Is my career more than I bargained for, and am I truly happy professionally? Why are there so many ups and downs in married life? And how am I supposed to move forward following the suicide of my younger brother in 2009? So I took up writing to try to make sense of life's insanity and learn how to take care of myself while at the same time becoming a better person, wife, daughter, and friend. Here's to once again capturing joy and re-defining my “happily ever after” so that it is not only achievable, but also fulfilling. I definitely know that I am not alone on this kind of journey, be it by choice or circumstance. So let’s see where this goes. www.lifeafternormal.com

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